Its not ok

Does anyone care about Gods heart? Do we care at all anymore about how the Lord feels? We miss our devotional time or we ignore God sometimes all day. Were told if we dont spend time with God we wont grow or we wont be as blessed. How about spending time with God because He loves us, how about spending time with Jesus because He enjoys it? Do we care anymore about how God feels or is it all about us. Forget about blessing me today Father all I want is to be with you. Forget about my spiritual growth forget about my ministery, all I want is to be with you. I just want to feel your presence, I just want to touch your heart. I love how it sais in acts they ministered unto the Lord. Sometimes I think the only time Im truly honest is when I'm in silence before the Lord, not saying anything and just letting Him look into my heart. Next time were praying and we feel like stopping because we feel satisfied, how about asking Jesus if He is satisfied yet? How about being a servant of the Lords heart? how about seeking holiness deep in our hearts and motivations simply because the Lord delights in it. The Lord loves us with an everlasting love, does anyone care? When you love someone you are making yourself vulnerable to that person, a loved one has the ability to hurt you. Many poeple dont love because they are afraid of being hurt so they close there heart. How about our Fathers heart when we ignore Him. When we seek fellowship with Him simply so we can "get ahead", or treat fellowship with Him as simply a means of spiritual growth. "well if you dont spend time with God you wont grow" how about " If you dont spend time with God your breaking His heart?", Lets stop looking at everything from our perspective and start looking at it from Gods perspective.

Its not ok Gods heart is in agony over the sin in the world. Its not ok when millions of babies are being slaughtered, its not ok when billions are going to hell, hundreds by the day, the world is about to be thrown into the worst war, famine, and disease it has ever seen, its not ok. Peace! Peace! and there is no peace! Is it possible our hearts are so dull to Gods heart that we think there is peace when there is absolutely no peace. Is it possible our heart is so far from Gods that we can live in peace and comfort without agony or sleepless nights while all of creation is in agony groaning under the weight of our complacency. Could it be were afraid to see what God sees, To hear what God hears, He hears every cry of every babies blood that has been slaughtered on the alter of convenience, He hears the cry of billions of souls being tormented in hell, He hears the cry of every poor child, and every orphan. He sees countries ravished in aids, He sees every drug addicted prostitute, He sees every act of child molestation. Could you imagine that...now imagine Jesus on the cross suffering all of those things and not just seeing or hearing about it but actually experiencing and taking upon Himself the full weight of it all. Then when we get a handle on the cross in a way thats not a cliche, we can begin to understand Gods heart.

SPIRIT OF GOD! SPIRIT OF GOD! I PRAY RIGHT NOW YOU DO AS YOU PROMISED AND TAKE OF THE THINGS OF GOD AND DISCLOSE THEM TO US! POUR OUT THE TRUE KNOWLEDGE OF SELFLESS SERVICE TO THE HEART OF GOD! WAKE US TO THE TRUTH AND BURN IN US A PASSION TO SEE THE REDEMPTIVE POWER OF YOUR SONS BLOOD WORK IN THE EARTH! SPIRIT OF GOD LET US NOT GO TO NICE MESSAGE AFTER NICE MESSAGE RAISE UP PROPHETS WHO WILL KNOW THE TIMES AND WHAT WE MUST DO! GOD MAKE US A PEOPLE AFTER YOUR OWN HEART!

Thanks to jesus.
Well Im wrapping up my time here in Poland and I have to say Im not ready to come home yet i see such an amount of work that needs to be done here. The harvest is truly ripe and I feel as though I will be leaving much of my heart here with the Polish people and I think it will be terribly difficult to leave but I must follow the lamb wherever He goes. if I can say one thing it is that i have learned that i am no Chrisitan hero as much as i long and strive to be one. Im just me and I have to deal with all my failures and my immaturity and short comings. But I have learned something so profound my heart will never be the same. And that is the language of love the love for human beings, I mean just loving human beings. I cant explain this to you I can just say it. I have learned...well more than that I have experienced Gods love for ordinary people. He just loves me, Im not Charles Spurgeon, Im not Smith Wigglesworth, Im just me. And He loves me and died for me I heave really learned to understand alot of His love since i came here, i dont think there are many days where i have not cried just thinking of how much he loves ordinary people. I have felt the sile of God over my heart and His arms around me and He wont let go and as He holds me I just give up and give in to His love. How can you love me Lord? dont yousee my failure? dont you see my struggle? dont you see how unspiritual I am most of the time? And He just holds me until I cant think and I cant reason and I just cry. How can you just such ordinary people as I have met in poland? I love Jesus.

Kracow!!!!

Thanks to Jesus Im here in Kracow at an internet cafe with my latest update. Bogdan, Henric and myself have been trveling southern Poland in the last few days visiting prisons and speaking at them. We went to 4 in all and theres so much I want to say about it but I dont have much time so youll have to email me or talk to me whn I get back home. So 4 prisons in 3 days and it was amazing to experience the presence of jesus behind bars with some of the most dangerous people in Poland. Some men were serving 4 death sentences!!! ( the death sentence is no longer active in Poland so that is equivilant to a life sentence behind bars) But in these prisons with some of the ruffest looking men I have every seen even at street church we have seen the Jesus move and bring these men to tears, Praise God!!!!!! Like I said there is so much I want to say but anyway right now we are staying with a family in the town where auwshwitz is located, we met the daughtewr and her boyfreind at the Christian camp and we called them up when we were planning to go to auwshwitz and they invited us to stay. So we went to auwshwitz and burkinhow ( wrong spelling I know) yesturday and now we are hanging out in krakow and earlier today we went to the salt mines. It was all very amazing and wow Im just in awe of how hospitible the Polish people are. Thje only hotel roome we have stayed in was in Holland. Anyway tell you much more and will have pics when I get home(by Gods grace)
Ok God bless!!!